树林中的树

   本来这个月还要更忙些，申请啊，推荐信啊，作品集啊诸如此类，不过现在么……鉴于总是有人问我申请准备得如何，在此告诉大家一声，托福考砸了，靠着现有成绩估计奖学金没戏，就打算明年再说了。

   田，包子，对不起了，继续等我一年吧。继续期待相聚的日子。

   也想过在十一月里刷新一次成绩，但是看看已有的一堆事情，实在不喜欢临阵磨枪的感觉，仓促地在开会和比赛之间再去考一次也未必能好多少，与其这样还不如把手头的事情做好，再安安心心准备一次。每天做一点，踏踏实实地就像打太极，不要突击不要撞运气。

   总有人说只要我想做的事情就一定能够做成，时间长了，我也渐渐相信了这句话，这一次，是久未尝过的滋味吧。突然发现自己选了不去拼到底，没有像以前那样义无反顾把自己逼到极限，而是主动选择了放弃。不禁怀疑这还是不是原来的我。

   我能保证的，只是自己在不断努力不断进步，其它的顺其自然吧。

   许下的愿望，希望能实现吧。谢谢祝我生日快乐的大家：）

    ——Mariah Carey 

   This is for my people who just lost somebody
   Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
   Put your hand way up high
   We will never say bye
   Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
   This is for my people who lost their grandmothers
   Lift your head to the sky because we will never say bye

   As a child there were them times
   I didn’t get it but you kept me in line
   I didn’t know why you didn’t show up sometimes
   On sunday mornings and I missed you
   But when we talked too
   All them grown full things
   Separation brings
   You never let me know it
   You never let it show because
   You loved me and obviously
   There’s so much more left to say
   If you were with me today face to face

   I never knew I could hurt like this
   And everyday life goes on like
   "I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
   "I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
   As time goes by

   And soon as you reach a better place
   Still I’ll give the whole world to see your face
   And I’m bragging right next to you
   It feels like you gone too soon
   The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

   And you never got the chance to see how good I’ve done
   And you never got to see me back at number one
   I wish that you were here to celebrate together
   I wish that we could spend the holidays together

   I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
   With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
   I thought you were so strong
   That you can make it through whatever
   It’s so hard to accept the fact you’re gone forever